Not looking at her, he taps his fingers on the bar top. He knows that everyone is going to have a big problem with him if they find out about it. It's going to make his life here even harder. His city habits are one thing... this on the other hand was an entirely different and worse ball of wax.

"I ... don't know. I don't... I mean I've tried... really hard to not... but then I just keep on messing up again."